I danced for kings
and bled for queens
Even torched my self for fiends
And caught up in my quest for faith
my only friends
were my mistakes
What the hunt reveals
the child protects
that hate is love
that love reflects
What the hunt reveals
the child protects
that hate is love
that love reflects
I come to you
As the memory of the person
I once was
As one who understands
That he has been alive
Only in the biological sense
Of the Word.
For I have lived for a long time
In the perception of a reality
And its material experience
That I now understand
To be false
For me, it took on the structure
Of a Game.
A beautiful, meticulously designed Game which
Promised its players the opportunity to unlock
Their limitless potential.
And so I learned its rules
And applied them to every aspect of my life
I dutifully and studiously learned its rules
Accepted its sacrifices
And climbed the path toward its most lofty rewards
At any point, if you had asked me
How are you doing…
In the Game?
I would have told you
I was winning.
But in truth
On a scale of 1-10
In terms of actual success
I was only a 3
Acting like I was a 9.
And in that cycle
Of self-told fantasies
Which I created out of
A need to justify the Game
I slowly moved in a ritual drama
That only brought me
Into incrementally more competitive
And isolated stances.
Ultimately separating me from all the players
For whom I knew my Spirit had only
The most innate and unconditional Love
But against whom my victories increasingly
Could only be secured by their material and social
And spiritual deficits
And so it was
That one dark and infinite night
I woke up
In a dream
The kind of dream you have
In which you, for the first time,
Are given the sensation of what it is
To actually be awake
For it was at that moment
That I was shown the blinding
That I was not playing the Game
But the Game was playing me
In that moment, I was shown my self
Not as the independent, powerful
I had come to believe my self to be
Instead I woke up to the vision of my self
As a highly functional, flawlessly programmed
In an giant unseen apparatus whose sole function was
To justify and sustain the existence of the Game
And I knew then that I had a choice
Either transcend and escape the material contract
I had made with the Game
Or perish as its servant
I chose the first option.
If you are reading this
And if you feel that even the slightest
Part of my story resonates with your experience
I want to tell you that there is a place
There is a community
There is a path
That is illuminated by the light
of our collective cosmic destiny
That can lift you out of the bondage
Of the old and tired and corrupt Game
And unlock from within you the magical truth
That to live the life that you had always dreamed
Or perhaps never allowed yourself to dream
You only need to ask.
Ask to remember that simple truth
Which you have forgotten
But which has not forgotten you.
That truth which you agreed to forget
As a condition to enter the arena
Of this existence
And the Game
Which has the solitary goal
Of making you believe that it
Is the bequeather of all power
The source of all life
And the God
Of all things
If you are done with that Game
And if you have that deep
As I did
That we have been living in
Some kind of magical lie
One that exists only for the purpose
Of pressing us to wake out of
Our collective trance
Then this is an invitation to come
And join those who are making that
Brave and sacrificial leap
Into the fabric of the external realm
Which has always been, and will always be
Long before our human family fell
Into this beautiful sleep
We invite you
For one last time
Not as a parade of individual
Erected to the glory of the Game
But as newly born, freshly awakened
Fully embodied collective who understand
They are on this Earth for a purpose
That this is the moment your
Whole life was designed
And created for.
I received a few questions and challenges posed to my Mystical Trump post. One of them gives me the chance to answer them all. It comes from AM:
“Interesting. I’m trying to think about it in terms of the relationship between the market and society in Polanyi’s Great Transformation. The idea that the two realms aren’t really separate, but rather society’s response to crisis in the market makes the continuation of capitalist markets possible. So seeing them in a dialectical relationship.
In this context I guess my question would be a somewhat basic one: in what ways does or doesn’t a move towards inward non-opposition perpetuate the dialectical relationship between seemingly oppositional forces?”
This is a great question, and it is where it gets a little complicated. The core plank of my position lies in this graf:
what i would suggest however, in the context of (r)evolutionary mysticism is that we not feed into that binary impulse that drives those groups who are currently engineering reality for the great part of the world. but rather, that we consider that by opposing things with the intent of destroying them, we edify them in the process.
The simple answer to your question lies in the nature of dialectics. In its purest form, a dialectic is a discourse between differing points of view on a subject. In the case of political or social conflict, it is the semantic expression of a chaotic sine wave.
So in the pure mathematical/physics context, if we occupy the polar viewpoint to our ‘opposition,’ and we are engaged in a dialectical process, then we are an implicit participant and driver of the opponent’s momentum and identity. It follows then that if we simply abandon our positions and thus remove the binary curvature in the wave’s force/resistance, it will have the effect of collapsing the entire structure.
But that is a fallacy.
One has only to look at history to know that there have been times when hatred and anti-humanism have marshaled enough force to very nearly approach world domination if not for the willful opposition of an opposing force.
In some cases agents of change have been able to destroy all opposition so that they simply become the structure of reality themselves. They become the new paradigm, and the dialectic continues, within the parameters established by the new order.
This is very much what has happened to the world post-Industrial Revolution, and why Polanyi is able to make him point, that in the capitalist paradigm, even opposition feeds the capitalist enterprise.
I am proposing something very different here. Going inward is not simply about becoming silent and meditating oneself into an innocuous trance. No. Not at all.
When I write about (r)evolutionary mysticism, I am invoking an ancient practice that is more akin to alchemy than non-violent opposition. This is the stuff of the mystery schools who were forced underground for millennia because of the (real and perceived) threat they posed to those who ruled humanity on the material plane. You can find the substance of this deeply subversive thinking through history from Plato, Hermes, Meister Eckhart, and then the modern mystics like Mabel Collins and Helena Blavatsky.
In this line of (r)evolutionary thinking, the reality we are experiencing is not primary. It is a recipient realm, which receives the projection – much limited and distorted by virtue of the time/space confinements of 3D – of a higher, more true source. And it is from this realm that we can connect our earthly consciousness to attain incredibly powerful transmutational power. Power which will not simply neutralize the forces of hatred and fear which we ‘oppose’, but transform them through the vibrational frequency that we attain in our alignment with, and tuning to, the primary, non-material realm.
If we simply ‘oppose’ Trump from within the confines of the same paradigm, we are still locked in the same structure and what you get is another crest in the wave without ever transmuting the generators that created him. (Hence, the 50 year dialectic of Carter-Bush-Clinton-Bush-Obama-Trump).
So this is what I am talking about when I say, in my Mystical Trump piece, that we should:
vanish into the interior realm, where true generative power resides.
But of course, knowing how to connect with and channel a new paradigmatic vibration is not a simple thing. And it is not something that is taught. But, I will tell you, it is something we know innately to do. Just as much as we know that sitting near a 1000 year old redwood nourishes us more than hugging a telephone pole. But we must be willing to let go of the primacy of this plane, and all its amazing spectacles, in order to bring in the new/ancient thing that is what we are all so hungry for.
Let’s bring it back to Trump.
This is a phenomena that is being generated by people who are responding to a perceived threat. The campaign was driven by a system of phobias that essentially create an ‘us vs them’ dynamic which was enough to position Trump as a savior for the millions of Americans who feel deep-seated frustration and anger at their diminished economic and social agency.
The reality is that what these people are experiencing is real. And what Steve Bannon and the Trump team did was take that anger and channel it into a campaign that reflected it back in order to create a force of energy that would propel them to a electoral victory.
(r)evolutionary mysticism is not concerned with opposing these people. It is not concerned with opposing Trump or Steve Bannon or whatever other interchangeable body suit the ruling paradigm throws up to sustain its steady march toward oblivion.
It is concerned with a solution that is appealing to the deepest facets of all humanity. It is about ending the dialectic we are currently trapped in and establishing an entirely new playing field. Call it paradigm shift, call it a spiritual awakening, call it the solution to quantum physics’ search for a unifying theory.
Mysticism is based on the belief that we are in a place in which we are unable to feel the innate interconnectedness of all things, but that we all emanate from the same creative energetic field, and that is something we very simplistically call ‘love’.
And there is no cleaner and purer and more profoundly transformative vibration than love. But ‘love’ as we experience it on the material plane is a mere fragment of its computational and transmutational power in the non-material realm. What I have experienced in my own limited journeys to the primary realm is so beautiful and massive and ancient and futuristic… it is like a wave of creative potential that has the power to sink all of these zero-sum antiquated architectures and simultaneously float all boats to a new kind of world that we have only ever dreamed about. And it is just as real as everything we are experiencing now.
You just have to close your eyes,
when we look at current news and historical events, the frame we use to interpret them shapes their meaning and symbolism.
there are a lot of different frames, but when we look at the world through the mystical lens it requires a disciplined approach to observing – and not reacting – to events. for a global population that increasingly defines itself by its judgment of news, this is a very difficult position to hold.
this is why you will see very ‘spiritual’ people abandon the principles of ‘awareness’ – in favor of ‘realism’ and ‘practicality’ – when they engage with the drama factory that is Donald Trump.
i know a lot of people who adhere to the practice of non-dualism – not believing in a binary system of ‘good’ or ‘bad’ – who completely lost their shit when Trump took the Presidency. instead of seeing his victory as a critical phase in the movement towards a new human paradigm, they took it as a signal of retrograde momentum.
and a good reason to drop all the spiritual novelty.
i want to take that phenomena up here. as a way in, let’s take a look at a current news story as a way of seeing the multiple perspectives that can be applied to current events.
the New York Times recently published this headline:
the piece centers on this bit of reporting:
The United States launched more airstrikes in Yemen this month than during all of last year. In Syria, it has airlifted local forces to front-line positions and has been accused of killing civilians in airstrikes. In Iraq, American troops and aircraft are central in supporting an urban offensive in Mosul, where airstrikes killed scores of people on March 17.
Two months after the inauguration of President Trump, indications are mounting that the United States military is deepening its involvement in a string of complex wars in the Middle East that lack clear endgames.
those endgames may well be actually quite clear to the strategic leaders in Trump’s administration. among them, the desire to fortify the American global manifest destiny by embroiling themselves further in a Middle Eastern quagmire.
as the Times notes:
Others fear that greater military involvement could drag the United States into murky wars and that increased civilian deaths could feed anti-Americanism and jihadist propaganda.Some insist that this has already happened.“Daesh is happy about the American attacks against civilians to prove its slogans that the Americans want to kill Muslims everywhere and not only the Islamic State’s gunmen,” a resident of the Syrian city of Raqqa wrote via WhatsApp, using the Arabic acronym for the Islamic State, also known as ISIS or ISIL. He gave only his first name, Abdul-Rahman, for fear of the jihadists.
so there is the story. now let’s look at it through a spectrum of lenses, landing on the mystical to close:
the cynical view is: the military industrial complex have asked for a $54B increase in military spending, so they need to fire off some stock.
the real-politikal view: this is the thrust of a nation that is aware that is needs to re-assert its geo-political dominance in the face of declining power and a shift towards Sino-hegemony in world affairs
the religious context: it’s the natural extension of the clash of civilizations narrative that surfaced as a key driver in US foreign policy after 9/11. this has real apocalyptic planks as Mike Pence is professing to be a pure evangelical. and Steve Bannon wants to drive civilizational paradigmatic conflict.
the conspiratorial view: this sets up a justified narrative for the travel bans, possible muslim registry, and potential blowback on US soil.
each of these has their own built-in conventional wisdom in terms of how to oppose and disarm the threat.
now let’s take it from the mystical context:
first, let’s be clear this has to be intuitive not intellectual. so this read comes from my gut and not my brain. but here is how i see it:
the earth is a generative free will plane. everybody gets to experience what they believe in at some level. especially those large groups who operate under consensual collective paradigms. part of the game here is to get as many generating organisms to buy into your paradigm, and thus make it a dominant world-building engine.
history is made by those who achieve that and get to live out their stories on earth.
Trump’s election is about those groups (who are united across a broad spectrum of social economic, military, and religious ideologies) having agency in the historical narrative.
and those who buy into the binary; into conflict and competition and right and wrong. they will get to fight it out.
it needs to happen if they are ever going to learn about the nature of their impulses. which is part of the trip for us here on Earth.
but that is not to say we should sit back and not fight for the world we believe in. not at all.
what i would suggest however, in the context of (r)evolutionary mysticism is that we not feed into that binary impulse that drives those groups who are currently engineering reality for the great part of the world. but rather, that we consider that by opposing things with the intent of destroying them, we edify them in the process. and that there is another way of vanquishing and disarming an “opponent”… and that is through the understanding the nature of flow and systems of energy.
if we are all connected… if we are all part of the same system (which is a cornerstone of the mystical paradigm), then we are not seeking to destroy our opponent, but rather to draw them into the wisdom of our perspective and our practice. so what do you do with a three thousand pound gorilla who appears to have nothing but ignorance and self-interest as their driving force?
the mystical answer: pull away. vanish into the interior realm, where true generative power resides. and move from there. at least for some small percentage of the time you put towards the oppositional consideration and action. see what happens to that force, which gathers its momentum from opposing forces. it will topple over with its own false momentum.
this is a form of aikido. which differs from traditional combat.
the definition of aikido?
aikido is often translated as “the way of unifying (with) life energy” or as “the way of harmonious spirit”. [the] goal was to create an art that practitioners could use to defend themselves while also protecting their attacker from injury.
i know how counter-intuitive it is, my brothers and sisters, but with everything i understand about political revolution and the militarization of domestic and world police forces, some of us will have to develop a new approach to engaging what we oppose in the closing moments of the old paradigm. and this is going to mean surrendering the conventional wisdom that informs political opposition.
the spiritual precepts of non-duality and soul-based world-creation can no longer simply reside as philosophical novelty items that we pull out during times of peace and tranquility. they are ancient and practical strategies for creating the next world. it’s time we put them to use.
(a follow-up to this piece with answers to questions about it: here)
(there is also a facebook page now for this blog, here)
with deep bows to my brothers in the CJ and especially BB who always puts me through my paces
I’m not sure when it first began. It was always a voice within my psyche from my earliest days, and it has grown louder over the years: The sensation deep within me that something transformative is going to happen in my lifetime. Not just in my own personal story, but in the long narrative of our human species.
Of course, it’s become cliché to talk about the millennial angst of imminent apocalypse. The prophecies and predictions are natural curiosities for this time of uncertainty. But I’m talking about something much more hopeful. A metamorphosis, a civilization-wide transition, that intrinsically alters the world and my place within it.
I know that I am not alone in this awareness. People of all cultures have been experiencing the same anticipation. For some, it is the feeling of dread and loss. For, others, a sense of optimism and relief. It all depends on what kind of story they believe in. And in what way it will shape our future.
But this process cannot be engineered by people who are not committed to undergoing a process of transmutation and evolution. It cannot be driven by those who still work within the confines of an old paradigm that is dualistic and adversarial to the very force of nature that will be the guiding impulse of the new earth.
This will require a kind of willful forgetting of everything we think to be true about our reality and the nature of our beings. Coupled with a remembering of something so ancient and futuristic, so terrestrial and cosmic, that we suddenly begin to surface an awareness of something within us that exists beyond time and space.
I have embarked on this journey. And I say very carefully: embarked. I am so aware that I am at the beginning of something that I may never finish in this lifetime, that I know I have been inoculated from the inclination to preach about what I am finding here, in this deeply magical and mystical space. The only thing I want to say is that it is a process of healing.
And that is all it is. That is all it will ever be.
Because once I had begun this process of self-healing, I rediscovered that same unwavering sense that a new world is being born. Only this time, it was no longer a quiet signal emitting from some distant part of my self. Now, it came as a powerful beacon with the offer of a journey. One that steered me to a new understanding of myself and, ultimately, of the innate power that we all have to create the new world that is our inheritance.
This blog is about that journey. It is about the mystics and their philosophies who helped me to find my way from terrestrial blindness to high-altitude perspective. More than anything, it is about a set of laws which have been in existence for thousands of years, but which no more than a handful of us were able to accept as canons.
And which we all now must.
It is my firmest conviction that unless a critical mass of our human civilization undergo a fundamental shift in the way we understand ourselves, and the spiritual dimension in which we operate, then we will go the way of the apocalyptic prophecies. But if we can steer our way toward adopting a new consciousness, as our species has done at so many critical moments in its evolution, then there is a chance that we will manifest that very future that has been living inside of me, and so many others, for so long.
In its broadest sense, this (r)evolution implies the acceptance of a responsibility as divine beings with infinite creative power. One that begins with self-knowledge and evolves into the transmission of clean thoughts, words, and actions which impact and transform the physical plane.
It requires that we each embark on a vigilant and sustained process of self repair, thereby changing the vibration of the world one person at a time, until we have reached a critical mass and initiated an energetic paradigm shift in the consciousness of our human civilization.
We begin by learning who we are, and what we are not. Our goal is very simple:
Materialize the spiritual.
Are you with me?