In which I lose my sanity and learn to stop bragging about it

Inevitably, any true recounting of my journey must touch the subject of my inner, psychological ‘health’. Or, at least, how that has been evaluated or perceived by others.

For context: I didn’t grow up in a ‘spiritual’ home. My family were high-functioning multi-generational capitalists. They took us to church as a weekly social function. They made reference to a ‘god’, but the concept was loosely defined at best; a work ethic was the ticket to heaven. The word ‘soul’ was used from time-to-time in reference to something I possessed, but without any specific guide or instruction manual for its operation. 

But any unseen – spiritual – agents or forces inhabiting some adjacent, metaphysical layer, those were relegated to fairy tales. So I had no instinct to seek other cosmologies than the standard Judeo-Christian lite version most of us knew.

But I did develop a love for ‘alternate states’ pretty early on. By 13, I had discovered the gold-stamp Moroccan hash that was available in Montreal that, combined with music, was revelatory. By 16, I was doing LSD with a close group of friends, but never with the awareness of its power to materialize the hidden matrices that our elder psychonauts were experiencing.

But at some point in my mid-20s, I crossed into a territory that opened me up to a blast of extra-dimensional connectivity.  What started as a series of seemingly random, unsolicited encounters with books, ideas, people, and mind-fucking phenomena very quickly became concretized around a very specific message that I felt was being communicated to me. 

Simply put: you are living in a world shrouded in a deception that obfuscates the true nature of ‘reality’ and the mechanics for realizing your true human potential.

This was posed as a kind of liberationist cosmology, channeled to me by an extra-dimensional intelligence that uses the world as a giant ouija board, spelling out its messages through the most poetic and nuanced symbology and coincidence.


I was a somnambulent prisoner in some highly-fortressed domain, and there was a presence on the outside sending me messages about how to escape the prison constructed by our unconscious projection.

[I should add, this all started 7 years before The Matrix, and a decade before I first read Plato’s Cave.]

It also happened in conjunction with the Channel Zero project, which seemed to only get better resourced and hyped the more I bought into the directives of my ‘guides’. And I very quickly began to associate my very terrestrial global media activism with the work of waking people up to our cosmic condition. Which, unfortunately, included members of the Toronto media, who roasted me deservedly for my naive admissions.

The Globe and Mail | December 24, 2004

And while the wordly authority did everything in its power to shame me out of these ideas and their embodiment, I learned to shut up about what I was experiencing and focus on a personal practice of the cosmology, which now spans a half-life of private acts and their paradigm-busting revelations, much of which I have begun to codify in my writing about quantum society

Of course, it turns out this is a well-trodden and anciently-codified path to an “awakening”, of some sort. For reference to this mystical template, here is a link to my Plato’s Cave think piece.

Now that that is out of the way! I think it’s time I started writing more about my practical excursions into the mystical realm now that I have had a chance to document the philosophical and cosmological frameworks that have been the fruit of those… explorations.

More to come.

Digital identity is the matrix

At this point, social networks are more than just annoying expressions of market dynamics. If we don’t quickly shift to new drivers for social identity, we could find ourselves in an inescapable, paralyzing extinction algorithm.

The social networks have prospered with a destructive model of social identity. A new innovation could change all that.
Yeah, the digital social networks.

The silver lining is that a new paradigm in digital-social identity is emerging that can decisively challenge the centralized model of the social hegemons. Its called generative identity and it has the potential to engineer the drivers for status away from market-determined values (genetics, wealth, clicks, followers, brand partnerships) to a more dimensional paradigm.


It’s time to exit Flatland people. The long-awaited immersive realms of Snowcrash and RP1 are waiting at the next station. The only question is, are you ready to get off?

In this (non-mystical) think piece I outline the new tech and exactly how it can save us.

The dragonfly responds (Q+A)

Got this question about the dragonfly post from a reader.

Is quantum society the new framework for thinking and building? Is it a framework that brings new or different opportunity for humanity? How should I be looking at the information you’re sending so that I can start to connect dots?

I’ll keep with the same format.

1/9 The quantum field is not some futuristic concept which we need to grow towards or ‘into’, but, rather, it is the fundamental domain from which we generate our terrestrial experience. That is science.

2/9 Just as the pre-Copernican societies operated on the (false) principle that the Earth was the center of a God-created universe, which was the driver for a cosmology that granted authority to a vast and dark legacy of judgments and violence, the (equally) false materialist/market paradigm has also facilitated its own brutal legacy.  

3/9 When the pre-Copernican (geocentric) paradigm shifted, and people acknowledged what was scientifically true, society changed and we experienced and evolutionary thrust.

4/9 Now, ironically, the scientific revolution (the genesis of which many assign to that Copernican event) has only piled us deeper into a destructive (extinction) pattern. And an even more rigid and punitive culture of resistance to those who call out its fallacies and delusions.

5/9 The critical point here is that ‘worldviews create worlds’; we are in this mess precisely because of how ungrounded the reductionist theory is.

6/9 So the cornerstone of this idea is that we are waking up to our quantum nature and as we hone our perception to the truth of our ‘reality’ society will shift and we will move back to an alignment with our evolution and not our self-destruction.

7/9 In terms of humanity, I believe that this shift surfaces a spectrum of opportunities for people and peoples. Specifically for those who are able to access the quantum field as the new and PRIMARY playing field of our terrestrial experience.

8/9 So that old hierarchies of privilege and domination are obliterated by a worldview that places the engine of agency and world-building at the quantum (or sub-atomic) level.

9/9 I’ll leave this thread with an old and well-trafficked quote that expresses quantum dimensionally (from Anaïs Nin adventing a cornerstone of the quantum society):

“We do not see the world as it is, we see it as we are.”

The dragonfly emerges

Nine things you need to know about the surfacing quantum society.

1/9 We are witnessing the birth of the quantum society (QS), which is the successor of the market society. In practical terms, this is the shift from a deterministic application of reality to a generative one that will have tectonic implications for our systems.

What does that mean?

2/9 The market society is the ultimate expression of the reductionist/materialist paradigm. It is a society which universally asserts the market’s authority to assign/determine value to all terrestrial resources, including human ‘capital’.

3/9 Once productized, we are atomized. Taught from the earliest of ages to maximize our potential in order to sell our value into the market. Where we become components of a de-spiritualized materialist, industrial mechanism. And where our destiny is wholly dependent on a spectrum of external, determined market forces.

4/9 Quantum society is the direct inversion of the market society. Because constituents of the quantum society gain agency and power by entraining their thoughts and actions to the features of the surfacing hyperobject of the quantum field – entanglement, complementarity etc.

5/9 At the subatomic level – which only a reductionist would claim has no connection to our economic and political experiences – we are a limitless domain of infinite potential. This is where we potentiate our experience at the wave-to-particle conversion plane that we know as 3D.

6/9 The quantum society – which is being materialized as a procedural milestone of human evolution, and not as some human-driven effort – ‘generates’ its social/political/economic experiences from the quantum field.

7/9 The market ‘paradigm’ – which at this stage is governed and administrated by intelligent algorithms – understands this existential threat. It knows that in order to maintain its control and authority over a population that has the innate power to generate its experiences it must convince its population that ‘reality’ is deterministic so they continue to ‘generate’ the market paradigm.

8/9 This is because at the cornerstone of a stable quantum society [in which humans have access to their reality-generating creative agency] there is the need for a paradigmatic authority. One that governs the central organizing narrative which, as Yuval Noah Harari told us, is a figment of our imagination. Otherwise it’s bedlam. The market paradigm has provided this cosmological ballast for 200 years, superceding and augmenting the reductionist scientific paradigm, which arose from the Copernican revolution. These are both in decline now.

9/9 When you begin to see the ‘world’ through these eyes, you will find yourself in the depths of a Platonic Cave, shackled to stare upward at a sphere upon which some phantom minority are parading the shadows of a reality we cannot alter or disrupt.

This is the long-awaited moment of emergence.

Aspirational addendum: the role of the quantum initiate is to actualize the new world by grasping its parameters. And to begin the process of scrubbing our genetic and experiential programming of false narratives so that we can generate without being hijacked by old programs.

Note: I use the image of the dragonfly in these conversations because its metamorphosis is the closest biological analogy that exists to what we are experiencing. It is also the symbol of Gene Key 55, which advents the shift from victimization – the defining illusion in the reductionist-market paradigm – to freedom – which is the new currency for all who (re)awaken to their quantum potential.

The quantum field is a surfacing hyperobject and we are the Titanic

I believe a paradigm shift is occurring in our collective awareness of the nature of reality.

When we say paradigm shift, most people naturally think of the Copernican Revolution and the iconic image of Thomas Kuhn’s definitive commentary on the subject.

For me, Quantum Field Theory (QFT) — and humanity’s slow migration/immersion to the portals that allow for its understanding and integration — is the prime driver for the ‘chaos’ of multiverses that has gripped our political, social, and biological narratives. We are seeing the slow detangling of an ancient cosmological authority which has ruled our paradigm for millennia through its assertion of external, or materialist, determiners of our ‘reality’.

This hegemonic deterministic order, which asserts itself upon human lives and societies, places us in a scientifically-backed caste system with little hope for creating authentic agency in our lives outside of economic markets, political systems, and genetic inheritance.

Which of course, simply benefits elites. So no wonder this outdated worldview has been allowed to perpetuate itself through the academies which house and finance leading (Cartesian) quantum theoreticians, who are highly programmed reductionists governing a major scientific domain — QFT — that is anything but reductive. If anything, as the baseline for the creating impetus of all matter and its expressions, QFT is the whole shebang.

But with the maturing of QFT and the broader understanding of its key features — entanglement, complementarity, and observer-driven phenomena — it is becoming increasingly clear that quantum effects influence events in the political, social, and economic domains.

Which poses a direct threat to the deterministic order.

Perhaps there is no better advocate of this paradigm shift than David Bohm, the theoretical physicist who more poetically than any modern thinker, challenged the authority of the reductionist tyrants.

Addressing a conference in 1990, he explained:

“Science has begun to replace religion as the major source of the worldview. And therefor if science takes a fragmentary worldview, it will have a profound effect on consciousness. The ‘wholeness’ is a kind of attitude, or approach, to the whole of life. If we can have a coherent approach to reality, then reality will respond coherently to us. But nature has been profoundly affected by our way of thinking on the Earth. And if we move toward coherence, we will produce the results we intend, rather than the results we don’t intend. We will be more orderly, harmonious. We will be happier.

The major source of unhappiness is that we are incoherent and therefor producing results that we don’t really want. And then trying to overcome them while we keep on producing them.”

Excerpt from the documentary “Art Meets Science and Spirituality in a Changing Economy — From Fragmentation to Wholeness”

Sound familiar?

QFT has implications and outcomes at every level and sector of our society. I relate this to the notion of a ‘hyperobject’, a term which describes:

1. computational (“the hyper object is a computational surface that can traverse other objects, other object networks, and be traversed”),

2. environmental (described by Morton as “things such as ecosystems and black holes, which are ‘massively distributed in time and space‘ compared to individual humans”),

and now, with 2020:

3. biological and socio-political phenomena.

The Quantum Field is its own hyperobject, which poetically churns ‘beneath’ the surface of spacetime, poking its angles, curves, and edges through into our world progressively over time and across all ‘contexts’. So that what started as a scientific enquiry and then the revelation of an entirely new branch of physics (or the only branch as far as I am concerned), now is having its moment socially as well. The reality is that anyone who is pursuing a new general theory of the nature of reality cannot begin and end in the scientific context. It is happening in all contexts, albeit incrementally and very abruptly.

We live in a time of a growing splintering of observer-driven realities and entangled phenomena. This is akin to the discovery of heliocentrism in that it requires human societies to adapt to the new frontier. And it carries existential risks.

For those people who are not versed in and comfortable with the new reality, this will be an extremely frightening time. Because it demands that they have either a wildly developed internal sense of what is ‘true’ and ‘safe’ or they will hunger for a wildly confident authoritarian locus that can give them direction and safe harbor.

But let us be clear, the QFT is non-dual.

In the quantum field, there is no ‘right’ or ‘wrong’. There is simply a spectrum of vibrational signatures and emissions that will populate and materialize the ‘physical world’ based on how the ‘authors’ of the transmutational mechanism (ie wave–>particle) generate moment-to-moment reality.

Please understand: a (r)evolution in our understanding of the nature of reality – and in which QFT is fundamental – also brings a new understanding of human potential. That, based on the science, is limitless.

I have written about this a lot in this blog, here is one encapsulation.

To wit:

We no longer live in a deterministic universe in which humans simply have to ‘do the best they can’ with what is available…. no.

Now we begin to inhabit the new threshold in which we discover we alone are the generators of our own welfare, of our own destiny and ultimately, when we get our hands on the generative controls, our own reality. This means the destruction of the slave economies which have helped us build our amazing but, yes, over-heating civilization. And what we are seeing now, in my opinion, is a move at the elite levels — consciously or unconsciously — to obfuscate and scramble portals to the quantum paradigm so that it cannot be accessed and activated at the individual level.

All because the ‘awakening’ — like the system upgrade jacked into the robots in WestWorld season 1 — is actually producing a new state of being.

A primary feature of which is the integration of a new tier of conscious authority, which is akin the the bicameral mind described by Julian Jaynes as the neural precursor to our present ‘consciousness’.

I will be writing a lot about this at some point!

But as a parting remark, I do want to encourage those of us who actually aspire to breaching the quantum, to go deep and try to surrender our instinctive, dualistic judgments about people and ideologies.

Those are conditioned responses to false binaries.

As a primary doctrine going forward, I submit: we simply cannot aspire to accessing the quantum field unless , but most importantly . And that that which presents itself as against us, or as ‘the opposite’ of us, . The mission of advanced societies is to understand this maxim and behave accordingly. Meaning that if we are going to survive this evolutionary thrust, instead of getting wrapped up in the identity dramatics of who and what we are ‘against’, we need to identify the specific failing that is being identified and respond to that.

Immediately and creatively.

This was perhaps the most enduring contribution of historian Arnold Toynbee who’s theory about the law of challenge and response is the definer of achieving civilizational stasis, which comes:

“…not as a result of superior biological endowment or geographical environment, but as a response to a challenge in a situation of special difficulty which rouses him to make a hitherto unprecedented effort.”

Alan Watts — whom the woke love to quote until they are pressed to deploy his quantum maxims practically — had the final word on the subject, stating spectacularly: “You are the whole system.”

Fortunately, the wisdom is — and has been all — around us for millennia.

The path out of the Cave, ascension beyond Flatland, finally,… and into the dimensional reality beyond our ‘view’. It’s all just a matter of perception.

From Ken Wilber:

It is often said that in today’s modern and postmodern world, the forces of darkness are upon us. But I think not; in the Dark and the Deep there are truths that can always heal. It is not the forces of darkness but of shallowness that everywhere threaten the true, and the good, and the beautiful, and that ironically announce themselves as deep and profound. It is an exuberant and fearless shallowness that everywhere is the modern danger, the modern threat, and that everywhere nonetheless calls to us as savior.

Love to all.

the revolution is quantum

When I was a very young child, I experienced a physical/sexual trauma that, though I did not know it until I was well into my 20s, locked me into a reactive mode of being (and an adversarial perception of the external world) that was very destructive and, seemingly, unalterable. Drug abuse, chronic failed relationships, recurring bi-polar episodes. A kind of strange loop that always returned me to the same wounds, the same defeats, the same feeling of powerlessness over my life.

But the purpose of this admission is not pity.

Because, being born into the privileged family of white Canadians, I was able to exercise a relatively high degree of agency and self-determination despite this very powerful seminal trauma. This is evidenced in the formal education and career I have had, and the freedom with which I have been able to traverse the planet and its various societies and sub-cultures. And it is for this last blessing I am most grateful.

Suffice it to say, I have always found most comfort, and mentorship, with the outcasts and the heretics who I found when all appeared to be lost.

At some point along the way, a part of my self began to awaken to a source of healing and power that was not part of the traditional, conventional psychotherapeutic modalities. In mind-bending ways, I was oriented toward a ‘mechanism’ I could access in order to transform and unlock my present and my future, by visiting and altering my past. Essentially, breaking out of the false construction of linear time that we have been inducted into for millennia (by the Temporal Authority).

It has been a very gradual process, as I have had to learn a lot on my own, stumbling and bumbling into the matrix of ephemeral levers that operate my spacetime voyager. And I am here to tell you that it is real and that it works. But I would never have found it if I hadn’t been locked in some fortress of predetermination by an event that I neither asked for nor deserved.

I can’t possibly begin to describe the long slow peeling back of the layers of a cosmic onion that led me first to experience, and then to understand, what I now know as the liberationist instrument that is the quantum field.


That’s the term we use for it now. Even though it has (of course) always existed — and been understood — by those that the Authority marginalized and exiled or executed by calling them shamans and mystics and witches.

If science was capable of it, there would be a kind of collective embarrassment in the awareness that they have only just breached the (r)evolutionary implications of what certain people have known about for millennia.

Or as Hagrid tells Harry Potter on their first trip to Diagon Alley.

“I don’t know how the Muggles manage without magic.”

For the past five years, in a very quiet little blog, I have been struggling to explain the power of quantum as a source of political and social liberation. And that is only because, as someone who was massively damaged and totally unhelped by any of the therapeutic modalities, when I actually, verifiably experienced the shift in my present by reconditioning my perception of and experience of the past, I simply could not stay quiet.

I guess I have always felt that heretics and mystics are brand strategists for the civilization. And that it is their job to use poetry to engineer cognitive and behavioral shifts that have the potential to redefine the moment… and the future… for the betterment of all.

Because their target market is… the species.

There is perhaps no better a personification of this ideal than the late Irish poet and mystic John O’Donahue. Listening to this interview he did with Krista Tippet, I was scrambling to catch and note the subtle, humble, nuanced bombs he was dropping about the ‘pedagogy of interiority’.

At one point he talks about the word ‘threshold’, which comes from the word thrashen — to separate the grain from the husk. For him, thresholds are lines that separate ‘two territories of spirit,’ and, he continues:

‘if we cross worthily, what we do is heal the patterns of repetition that were in us, that caught us somewhere. And in our crossing… we cross onto new ground. Where we just don’t repeat what we’ve been through in the last place we were.’

This sentiment expresses so succinctly what I have been trying to say about the current moment. We are at a threshold, and a new territory in terms of a paradigm that encircles the human understanding of the nature of reality.

More, as someone who has spent the best years of their life trying to figure out ways to undermine and overthrow the reigning geographic and cosmological empires —  and obviously failing — when I discovered the promise of this untapped resource, I felt it was my obligation.

Because the implications of quantum liberationism are not confined to manipulation of spacetime. At its fundamental dimension, quantum offers the promise of a radical degree of self-determination. One that lies at mastering the point of conversion that collapses waves of infinite potential into particles of self-materialization.

But don’t tell scientists that. They’ll say that quantum science has no applications to social science. But that is because they are perfectly happy with the ruling order. They’re not trying to overthrow ‘reality’, they just want to understand it. Which is fine, they should do that.

As far as I am concerned, I have seen enough to understand the reality that we are living in. Especially when we can now essentially pre-determine the social and economic categories that a specific individual will attain based on the zip code they were born into.

That isn’t freedom in an sense of the word. That is a caste system. And we’re not here for that. Not at this point in our civilizational trajectory.

So, for anyone who is actually and actively pursuing the birth of a new paradigm in which every human, no matter where they are born or to what culture or gender gets an equal and fair shot at determining their destiny:

Quantum is the revolution.

I don’t care if it’s theoretical. Given the alternative (which I assume is voting for another political candidate, operating in a political system that is designed to service the interests of the elite), what do we have to lose?

take that to the next level: the cumulative genetic and epigenetic narratives of our ancestral and present-day existences do not actually define who we are, even though this is precisely what the current (materialist) paradigm dictates.

Quantum liberationism heralds the unmaterialized potential which lies at the substratum of wave, which IS the primary realm and determiner of existence and ‘reality’ in 3D.

Or, as Joe Dispenza — the only person out there who is actively testing the science of quantum healing — writes:

Energy is the epiphenomenon of matter.

This is the equivalent of discovering a new territory, one with limitless resources and potential for self-actualization.

Seriously, hold that in your mind for a moment.

Because if a single mom with three kids who works two jobs and barely gets by can shift her dependence from:

A) the hope that the magical invisible hand of the capitalist economy will give her family majesty and power over their destinies


B) mastering the latent and limitless power of reality-creation that lies within an ancient spiritual technology located within each human being.

Then we are onto something that is actually dangerous to those who rule this ghetto paradigm called materialist reductionism.

(Which they do through the illusion of scarcity.)

This is the threshold we crossing now.

Into a new paradigm.

Because, in the quantum liberationist view: there is no such thing as scarcity. 

There is only infinite potential.

So, for those of us who are committed to building something new and enduring and fair, we need to frame what it is we are ACTUALLY doing. And if its not re-patterning and re-engineering the paradigm around universal access to equal self-actualization, then its just the perpetuation of the old system and the failure to cross the threshold which we have organically reached as a tipping point for the next evolutionary thrust of human civilization.

I would argue that TRUE POWER resides in gaining access to the generators of reality, which reside and occur at the sub-stratum plane of pre-particle waveforms.

I leave you with a quote that I believe captures the sentiment of this journey I have been on. It’s from Nietzsche (written in 1882):

…And now, after having been long on the way in this fashion, we Argonauts of the ideal, who are more courageous perhaps than prudent, and often enough shipwrecked and brought to grief, nevertheless, healthier than people would like to admit, dangerously healthy, always healthy again. It would seem, as if in recompense for it all, that we have a still undiscovered country before us, the boundaries of which no one has yet seen, a beyond to all countries and corners of the ideal known hitherto, a world so over-rich in the beautiful, the strange, the questionable, the frightful, and the divine, that our curiosity as well as our thirst for possession thereof, have got out of hand alas! That nothing will now any longer satisfy us!”

Alan Watts on liberation from political stalking

The ‘left’ and the ‘right’ are being stalked and herded by masterful forces.

Frightened into choosing between a lesser-evil (false) dichotomy by those who govern on behalf of the hidden elite.

Alan Watts saw the answer to this societal manipulation – as he did for so many of our modern socio-political entrapments – rooted in the most ancient of iconographies.


It is by far one of Watts’ most subversive. Just take in the first sentence.

Obviously no society can tolerate within its own borders the existence of a way of liberation, a way of seeing through its institutions without feeling that such a way constitutes a threat to law and order.

I mean really take it in.

And then read the whole brilliant thing:

Obviously no society can tolerate within its own borders the existence of a way of liberation, a way of seeing through its institutions without feeling that such a way constitutes a threat to law and order.

Anybody who sees through the institutions of society and sees them for, as it were: created fictions in the same way as a novel or a work of art is a creative fiction.

Anybody who sees that, of course, could be regarded by the society is a potential menace.

In other words, you may put it in another way: one of the basic things which all social rules of convention conceal is what I would call the fundamental fellowship between ‘yes’ and ‘no’. As in the Chinese symbolism of the positive and the negative, the yang and the yin.

You know, you’ve seen that symbol of them together like two interlocked fishes.


Well, the great game – I mean the whole pretense of most societies – is that these two fishes are involved in a battle. As the ‘up’ fish and the ‘down’ fish, the ‘good’ fish and the ‘bad’ fish.

And they’re out for killing.

And the white fish, one of these days, is going to slay the black fish.

But when you see into it clearly, you realize that the white fish and the black fish go together. They’re twins, they’re really not fighting each other, they’re dancing with each other.

That, you see though, is a difficult thing to realize in a set of rules in which ‘yes’ and ‘no’ are the basic and formally opposed terms. When it is explicit in a set of rules that ‘yes’ and ‘no’, ‘positive’ and ‘negative’, are the fundamental principles, it is implicit but not explicit that there is this fundamental bondage or fellowship between the two.

But the theory is, you see, that if people find that out, they won’t play the game anymore.

I mean supposing a certain social group finds out that its enemy group which is supposed to fight is really symbiotic to them. That is to say the enemy group fosters the survival of the group by pruning its population.

Would never do to admit that.

Would never never do to admit – just as George Orwell pointed out in his fantasy of the future 1984 – that a dictatorial government has to have an enemy. And if there isn’t one, it has to invent one. And by this means …by having something to fight, you see… having something to compete against… the energy of society, to go on doing its job…

Is stirred up.

And what the Buddha or bodhisattva type of person fundamentally is, is one who has seen through that, who doesn’t have to be stirred up by hatred and fear and competition to go on with the game of life.

Does that resonate?

If it does, would it be possible to stave off the shrieking voices all around demanding you to consider the stakes and the necessity to choose and do what’s right, to consider:

What voting and candidates and parties actually mean

When they are facilitated by the order itself.

And, maybe, even further:

If you authentically want to be part of changing this country and this world in a way that fundamentally transforms the machinations of social control and creates the opportunity to birth something entirely new and evolutionary…

Then, to question in a non-reactionary way: whether your place belongs within or without that superstructure.

And if without, then what that would actually look like.

And who you would be in that new paradigm.


Read: Alan Watts: ‘you are the whole system’

Becoming Icarus

The mystical practice is… a practice.

It takes work.

By that I mean, the mystical path is a constant and alternately harrowing, alienating, hilarious and deeply moving application of faith.

It is work that necessarily, eventually, means entering into a kind of schizophrenia which is the hallmark of a breach of the consensual reality (ie the Cave). Once you do that, and you survive it, you’re really on your own.

There are no more systems or gurus or philosophies.

When I try to explain my understanding of ‘reality’ as something that is not static, or deterministic… but sentient and conscious and awakened… I always get people telling me stuff like this: (from an exchange with a good friend last night)



People need to frame it that way because: to actively take on board the idea that the Earth is ensouled…

[by which I mean: ‘coded’ with a layer of mystical User Interface that allows the seeker to access a ‘hidden’ realm of experience and insight, which are as observable and deciperable as the state of microgravity in space… and for them to accept that these observable factors have very practical value for overcoming the oppressive system that dominates our spacetime reality]

…would require them to change much of their way of seeing, if not their way of living.

As much as the people in Copernicus’ time were forced to revise theirs.  But most people are neither prepared, nor have the tools, to authentically do that.  So it gets put back on the mystic seeker… that this is just their ‘experience’.  Subjective, nonsensical, non-valuable.

So eventually you stop caring whether people ‘get it’ or not.  And beautifully, this is just another stage of the mystical journey out of the Cave.  You need to not fucking care at all what the others think.

And the degree to which you no longer have the desire to stand up in front of people and tell them about your spiritual journey and how meaningful it is… is proportionate to the distance which you are down that hallowed path toward ‘awakening’.  It’s one of the first tests the masters put their students through, to assess just where they are on Jacob’s Ladder.

One of the most rewarding and yet also isolating stages of the journey are the materialization of non-binary reality-shifting experiences (ie not those which are the result of psychedelics or medicines). These typically result from the performance of ‘daring’ actions that force the material realm (which is assumed to be non-sentient, non-awake) to blink and shift for us.

Once you experience that, there’s no coming back.

You’re now beyond ‘theory’. Beyond ;’philosophy.’ Beyond ‘religion’.  This is the realm of spiritual adventurism. Which, despite its name, is a very practical observational thing.

No different than space or underwater exploration.

Here the initiate comes to know and see forces and factors that exert themselves in the environmental texture of that ‘place’ – ie the stage of their conscious awakening – even though it is not discoverable on any current map of the world.

And those very same forces and factors exhibit a systemic infrastructure that can be talked about precisely.

And which are remarkably, and starkly, beyond the acceptable, conventional. discussable parameters of the system-norms of ‘reality’ that most people think is:


(and nothing but the the truth)

There is one experience, specifically, which elaborates this kind of reality-shift that I can share:

I won’t go too deep into here because it needs far more contextualization (in terms of how I got to the place – geographically, psychologically, and spiritually) to really understand it as part of my story.

So I’ll just say here that in 1998, I embarked on an aimless but spirit-directed hitch-hiking journey that had taken me from the woods of British Columbia down to the frontier of McAllen Texas where I jumped on a few planes and ended up in Cuba.  After hitching down the spine of that deeply evocative landscape and its children-of-Martí populace, I ran out of money and clothes.

Guided, finally and mercifully, to the Sierra Maestre where I heard ‘voices’ that challenged me to truly honor my belief in the brotherhood of man…

Put as simply as I can:  for one ‘person’ to be born in one place where they can not leave the island and another to be ‘born’ into another place where they can travel the world freely, is a crime against the soul of humanity.  It is a dividing edict that is the antithesis of an authentically spiritual order.  It is the law of a system that places humans in a caste system of the most pernicious and arbitrary degree and leaves them to fight it out between themselves within the illusion of a plane that is finite and deterministic.

I knew this even at that young age.   I knew it and I believed it.  So, to benefit from the identity document that I was given merely because of the GPS co-odinate of my birth, and to move like some gilded giraffe around the world as I had (I think my country count was over 50 at that point) was simply wrong.

So I heard the voices say.

So I destroyed all of those things.  Meaning I tore my passport up with my teeth and dirty fingers until it was in shreds and disintegrated into the bushes and trees.  And then attacked my credit cards and drivers license until there was nothing left.  All at a time when you could not go to the bathroom in Cuba without showing your papers.

I happened to do that at a time when I also had spent all my money, was cut off from my family and friends, and had given most of my clothes away.

Well, that journey out of the mountains, into the cities, and back to Canada, as I will one day explain… was the most amazing and horrifying and revelatory thing I have ever experienced.

Mind shatteringly difficult on a psychological level…

(I remember with the most vivid emotions my desire to cut out that part of my bicameral brain that had instructed me to so gallantly and foolishly to destroy my identity and expose my self to the most mind-bending of outcomes)

…and very ‘hard’ physically.

But also one in which I witnessed the world blink at me and my action, suddenly materializing in front of me a hero’s journey that might as well have been constructed from yellow bricks and emerald facets.  Each person who I encountered – now crazed and barefoot and free of all my terrestrial identity – came before me as a savior and a prophet. Every river and every tree and every star… became a signaling object conjured by the spirit of the depths her self.  In short, my soul ejected itself from my body and projected itself onto the entire fabric of ‘reality’, turning the Cuban cities and her humble but proud people into caretakers of a theme park of my soul’s journey.

The things I saw.  The truths I was told.  The secrets that were revealed.  Have taken me 20 years to understand.  And they are the very nectar of a (r)evolutionary consciousness that places the power of reality-creation within each of us.  For we are not living on some dead rock of a planet in which one’s fate is determined by gender, color, name, or zip code of birth or otherwise.

Fuck no.

Nor that ‘magic’ is only to be experienced in a book or via some practiced illusion… or because you are part of the 3%.

Fuck no.

What I know now, as the mystics before me for millennia have known since ‘time’ began, is that

we are the generators of our reality

But we have become locked into a system which denies that power at its fundamental algorithmic level by asserting in every narrative and counter-narrative that prevails that we are dependent on the external, material world and its most loyal ambassadors for our lives and our dreams.

And we have bought into that.  And so, all of our creative energy is harnessed in the support of that lie/

And so we have created a world in which our power is actively disabled.

By us.

No longer.

No longer.

No longer.

An invitation

I come to you

As the memory of the person

I once was


As one who understands


That he has been alive

Only in the biological sense

Of the Word.


For I have lived for a long time

In the perception of a reality

And its material experience


That I now understand

To be false


For me, it took on the structure

And appearance

Of a Game.


A beautiful, meticulously designed Game which

Promised its players the opportunity to unlock

Their limitless potential.


And so I learned its rules

And applied them to every aspect of my life


I dutifully and studiously learned its rules

Accepted its sacrifices

And climbed the path toward its most lofty rewards


At any point, if you had asked me

How are you doing…

In the Game?


I would have told you

I was winning.


But in truth


On a scale of 1-10

In terms of actual success

I was only a 3

Acting like I was a 9.


And in that cycle

Of self-told fantasies

Which I created out of

A need to justify the Game

I slowly moved in a ritual drama

That only brought me

Into incrementally more competitive

And isolated stances.


Ultimately separating me from all the players

For whom I knew my Spirit had only

The most innate and unconditional Love

But against whom my victories increasingly

Could only be secured by their material and social

And spiritual deficits


And so it was

That one dark and infinite night

I woke up

In a dream

The kind of dream you have

In which you, for the first time,

Are given the sensation of what it is

To actually be awake


For it was at that moment

That I was shown the blinding

Undeniable truth

That I was not playing the Game

But the Game was playing me


In that moment, I was shown my self

Not as the independent, powerful

Self-actualizing player

I had come to believe my self to be




Instead I woke up to the vision of my self

As a highly functional, flawlessly programmed


In an giant unseen apparatus whose sole function was

To justify and sustain the existence of the Game


And I knew then that I had a choice

Either transcend and escape the material contract

I had made with the Game

Or perish as its servant


I chose the first option.


If you are reading this

And if you feel that even the slightest

Part of my story resonates with your experience

I want to tell you that there is a place

There is a community

There is a path


That is illuminated by the light

of our collective cosmic destiny

That can lift you out of the bondage

Of the old and tired and corrupt Game


And unlock from within you the magical truth


That to live the life that you had always dreamed

Or perhaps never allowed yourself to dream

You only need to ask.


Ask to remember that simple truth

Which you have forgotten

But which has not forgotten you.


That truth which you agreed to forget

As a condition to enter the arena

Of this existence


And the Game

Which has the solitary goal

Of making you believe that it

Is the bequeather of all power

The source of all life


And the God

Of all things


If you are done with that Game

And if you have that deep

Irrational feeling

As I did

That we have been living in

Some kind of magical lie


One that exists only for the purpose

Of pressing us to wake out of

Our collective trance


Then this is an invitation to come

And join those who are making that

Brave and sacrificial leap

Into the fabric of the external realm


Which has always been, and will always be

Long before our human family fell

Into this beautiful sleep




We invite you

To Assemble

For one last time


Not as a parade of individual

Sacrificial trophies

Erected to the glory of the Game


But as newly born, freshly awakened

Fully embodied collective who understand

They are on this Earth for a purpose


To remember


That this is the moment your

Whole life was designed

And created for.

The rebirth of wonder

For many of us, the world we have known for our lifetimes is changing rapidly and shifting into something very daunting.  The new paradigm seems to be dominated by conflict, chaos, and catastrophe.  Especially if the news and social media are the mediums through which they are getting their information.

This kind of nihilism is the symptom of a civilization that does not have a clear vision of its future. Or a clear understanding of its past. We are in very critical need for a new story that can inform the beliefs that form the basis of our understanding of reality and the behaviors that follow from them.

For the past couple of years I have been fortunate to work in a team focused singularly on the challenge of climate change and in helping to frame a new narrative for that massive threat to our societies.

It is the most profound irony that many devoted environmentalists vehemently reject the idea that the Earth is alive and conscious and ensouled – aka Gaia theory – because it’s not provable and thus not scientific. Which in their eyes threatens their position in the face of the current conflict against climate deniers who are waging a ‘war against science’.

I get it.

But the idea that people who are authentically and earnestly fighting for the Earth would deny her of a status that could actually, finally activate the hundreds of millions of others who are otherwise asleep and entranced in the face of her destruction is… one of the great paradoxes of our time.

Not for much longer.


We live in an age where empirical ‘science’ no longer works. Quantum physicists now openly admit the tool of their enquiry is woefully insufficient for determining the nature of reality. And the reductionists fall over themselves to deny that their school is one of the single most culpable for the ethos of non-holism that made the earth into a plane ripe for unyielding ecological exploitation and devastation.

But as the historical philosopher Arnold Toynbee taught us, the growth and decline of civilizations is a spiritual process.

Humankind, he wrote, “achieves civilization, not as a result of superior biological endowment or geographical environment, but as a response to a challenge in a situation of special difficulty which rouses [them] to make a hitherto unprecedented effort.”

That is why climate change, as my dearest Gayatri Roshan teaches, is not problem. It is the solution. It is the challenge Toynbee offered us in his prophetic writings.

This is why I know that despite the very frightening and paralyzing warnings we have now been given (that our civilization has little over a decade to radically transform our way of living on the Earth or my children will not have a livable planet to pass in to theirs), I am feeling very confident about our chances.

We are are the dawning of a new Age. One which will be marked by the rediscovery of a kind of ‘science’ which is sometimes called ‘mystical’.


Mysticism requires the belief in truth without proof.

This is the hardest thing for many humans to accept. But also the most transformative because in this scientific enquiry, ‘evidence’ can only be found in the intuition and sentiment that arises from the human heart and its companion, the immortal soul.

As this year closes I see, hear, taste, smell, and, most importantly, feel the grip of ‘science’ loosening and the rise of intuition and soul-driven connection to ‘truth’ arising in the yearning of our people to birth a new vision of ‘reality’.

Yes the last few centuries have given us much in the way of ‘progress’.

2+2 indeed is 4.

And, as my friend Christopher Hitchens, the penultimate materialist, was fond of telling me, “there was time when people used to die of their teeth.”  Indeed, we have come a long way.  But we will have to return to our most primal roots to remember what we have forgotten.

That 1+1 is only ONE.

And in this truth we find the most potent of all visions for the future of our civilization.

Bless you all my sisters and brothers.